"I am a Christian, do you know what that means? It means I'm far from perfect, Simply redeemed"... (song below)
I have to remind myself of this time and time again. I'm a Christian (a follower of Jesus Christ), but that doesn't mean I'm perfect. Nor does being a Christian guarantee that life will be peaches and cream either. I know there are some schools of thought out there preaching the contrary. However, I honestly don't know what Bible they're reading from?
People try to sell Christianity by saying, "If you come to Jesus, you won't have any more troubles. Things will get easier." I'm sorry to break it to you, but that's a fallacy. Actually things become harder. Jesus said in John 10:10, "I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." He wasn't speaking about material comforts or wealth. He meant those who believe in Him will be "spiritually" abundant because they will have Him. Jesus makes our lives full and abundant, despite our problems, which are inevitable and part of the human experience.
In Matthew 6:28-30, He tells us that He will provide for our needs... not our wants. In Matthew 6:18, Jesus says, "Don't store up treasures here on earth, where moths eat them and rust destroys them, and where thieves break in and steal." We are not to accumulate things on earth. But rather, we are to first seek His kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. (Matthew 6:33) People interpret "these things" to be health, wealth and prosperity and they chase after them. But He is our provider, not our Santa Claus.
I know I'm going to be shaking someone's tail feathers with this blog, but I can't compromise the truth. The more I go on in this walk, the narrower it gets and the lonelier. But I realize I'm not here to win any popularity contests.
If that was the case, I would have stayed in show business and singing "Start Spreading the News." At one time, that was my dream... to have my name up it lights... "Pilar the Star". I went to professional acting school, modeling school, dance school and studied classical voice privately for over 10 years. Not only did I think I was going to make it, but everyone who taught me thought I would too. So much so, that they thought I'd be their ticket to fame. I did accomplish a lot... and nothing at all. I guess God had other plans while I was chasing empty dreams.
Last Sunday I sang alone in church for the first time in years. I can't even remember the last time I sang a solo. I honestly did it unto the Lord, because I really don't enjoy getting up and singing in front of people. I know those of you reading this are probably thinking why? But I really don't have the answer. I just don't feel comfortable singing in front of anyone. If truth be told, I literally have to force myself. I prefer singing in a choir as opposed to singing alone. Maybe that's why I gravitate to writing as it's definitely my comfort zone.
But it's not about ME! What I like or don't like, what feels good, comfortable or not. I made a promise to the Lord that I would honor Him with my gifts and talents; despite my discomfort, fear or what people might think. I choose to obey Him because it's not about me, but about Him.
I am a Christian, but I'm not perfect, just redeemed, that is my new mantra.
There is this unspoken expectation in Christian circles (and in the world), that Christians are to be perfect. But think about it a minute, who on this earth is perfect? Noone. If you look at the disciples of Jesus, they were all far from perfect. The only perfect human being who walked the face of this earth was Jesus Christ.
There is great freedom in this... so just be yourself. Our sole obligation on this earth is to please the Lord and not people. At the end of the day, He knows our hearts and ultimately knows us best.
In conclusion, I end with this song... "I am a Christian, do you know what that means? It means I'm far from perfect, Simply Redeemed...": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qRcoB10LW80