I also realized I have a bad habit of condemning myself. Whenever I do something wrong or make a mistake, I beat myself up for days about it. The concept of grace, forgiveness and love seems to go out the window. How can this be?
Why is it that I can embrace God's law and judgment so easily, but when it comes to His grace and love, I have so much trouble? I can go about telling others about how much Jesus loves them, but when it comes to me, I have no mercy.
Something tells me I'm not alone either. I think there are many of us walking around like this; broken, hurt and unable to receive His love and grace too. For all I know it could be you?
You know what I'm learning, when Jesus came to earth He set up a new covenant, by which we are no longer bound by the law. (Hebrews 9:15)
But I have a hard time reconciling this in my mind. God's law vs God's grace. The old covenant vs the new covenant. Yes, we need the law, but we also need grace. There has to be a balance.
When there is too much focus on the law, there is the rigidity of legalism. I honestly find more legalism expressed by believers toward one another than love. I am guilty of this too, as I practice the art of legalism on myself. It may have something to do with how I grew up, it's sort of an ingrained pattern of perfectionism and cycle which just repeats itself. But I'm realizing that the Lord wants to set us all free of this bondage.
My prayer has been to have a personal revelation of God's love and to be able to receive and accept His grace too. I believe that by having a personal touch from Him will allow me the ability to see myself and others differently.
We can never truly love ourselves or others if we don't experience His love for us first. We can never truly forgive or extend grace toward others, if we don't fully accept His forgiveness and grace toward us first. This is the truth.
My prayer is that the Lord reveals His love and grace to us today. That He will touch us all in a very special way. That He will change our hearts and lives to radically serve and love others, the way Christ loves us. That can receive and embrace His free gift of grace and love through His Son Jesus Christ by His Holy Spirit and be set free. In Jesus Name I pray, Amen.
I end this with a song about Grace: http://youtu.be/qMdxnvFvoA8